I often contemplate, especially in times of struggle; on the past at times as if my mind is remotely set to play and rewind, consistently searching for that part in life, in which I was fine. And not fine in a physical sense; but in a place were the only worry I had at age 5yrs old was where I could find plenty grass for the grass-hopper to eat that I had caught on a leaf after playing Indians and Chiefs. I was an innocent child. I believe I stood about something feet… I’d hear my mother chant, “We must eat” with a plate of chicken, broccoli and peas in her hand which reminded me that life is a plate of journeys. I ate, even though I was not too fond of the peas I learned not to disagree, because disagreeing usually resulted in a beating.
Alas, I am now only 8yrs old discussing life knowing this wasn’t it, and there was more to it, a playground artistically painted in the clouds where worries don’t exist and the extent of my childhood ranges from many known friends of playing baseball, and on occasion the baseball would get stuck on one of the twelve gates. I don’t see my parents much now, but one day they will have the pleasure of seeing this beautiful city that we live in now.
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Obsessions is poetry, and claustrophobia are the letters that are obsessive-compulsive to the outline of the words that come together to format a meaning; I’m a neurotic poet?
(1932 – 1963)
“If neurotic wants two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I’m neurotic as hell. I’ll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days. ”
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“I witnessed a beautiful picture painted in crimson, elegant and frail. The art of the painting was meticulous as if it was mechanically designed to intake deeply distresses, and pumped passion through its abnormal character.
Detailed with affection, covered in existence, representing a language that spoke with criticism…. Overwhelmed, I begin to sob; for the painting had reveled art in a way of life.” –Nelvin Ray Love
When I see stuff like this I can’t help but think how artistically incline God is.
It almost makes you wonder if he was in that sense neurotic. Neurotic to the point to where His passion of creating beauty was is life.
And when I mean beauty I mean beauty in general. Why else would he create such a beautiful soul named Jesus.
Just think he had the whole universe as his canvas. He was the original artist. And we all have the pleasure To Witness the largest art Piece ever created!
My poetic thoughts
I’m almost certain god created me in his image, because why else would I create a world that replicates my point of view of what I define beauty is. Why else is it hard for me to control my passion and script every bit of my emotions publicly. It must explain the thunder in me that screams at times, but I know if I put more of a show on I will light up the sky with the hopes of Eve noticing me. I created you in my world and watched you develop so beautifully. I watched you closely as you would eat fruit from the garden, and how well your beauty would blend with the painted flowers and weeds that you would on occasion dance in. At times you would call me when you were down and when you would cry, secretly so would I, which might explain the rain of tears. As the creator I fell in love with my creation and couldn’t help to stand back in regret while you fall in love with Adam, but I do understand I created him as well and can only blame myself.
Feet bruised in sandals complimented with a reddish tone, skin damaged with a spirit big as stone, determined to become a thief of the character, while wearing a tunic that was woven in one piece, without a seam…
So it seems to be a painting of a war piece, backed by an infantry of prophesy to battle hate, and demolish hypocrisy, that was the philosophy no need for Socrates…
So you see… it was he who split the sea, his beliefs spit on by those that disagreed, although his intentions were low and meek, now on bended knee, the emotional teaching broke waves like an ocean, injecting a poison in the form of lecture, that spoke of the raptures people begin to take heed overwhelmed with grief, dancing with sin which introduced by his friend drunkenness; which feel in love with foolishness, in which gave no meaning to the term, soberness…
Now he has control of this, loose bowels, take a piss to release the non-sense, forgive my language knowing this is the end, I’m over this plant like earth; I could end it all right now with a slit wrist bleeding melody of pain on the piano keys the choir slowly plays a violin, when approached by a spirit that told me his feet were bruised in sandals complimented with a reddish tone, skin damaged with a spirit big as stone, who was determined to rob my character…
So you see… he recruited me with in his infantry to fulfill prophesy against hate and to demolish hypocrisy and in return he touches me in the most unconditional way, and redirects my life, I would say…
Converted with in belief I stared into his passion of Christ introduced has the Son of God, who came from the womb of Mary, whom hanged from the cross nailed, and buried within a rock of stone… Jesus Christ!
The sense of urgency brought me to a place where the melody played a passionate tempo slowly releasing a snare…
The touch opened notes that seeped through my skin drowning and gasping for air, I became confused
I began to tremble out of nervousness, spilling and staining ink while creating obsessive sheet composition.
The percussion of my heart started to beat rapidly conducting an orchestra that displayed a show for the audience of emotions that stood and applauds…
I’m lost in you to the point that your magnificence is displayed and distorted with the view of you. In a musical way…
Staring at the fan turn in a motion that my life resembles, I begin to think while my body trembles. I start to hallucinate of a touch of air, which enters my soul and rapes my heart, in a way that is consensual. Ashamed of my encounter, I begin to bury myself under the skin that covers my emotions. I start to swim in an ocean of insecurity while drowning in a sea of me. Blinded by it all, these tears clear my view of life. I begin to realize, I’m infected with the thought of you. I’m infected by your beauty, your being. I’m infected by your soft touch, your elegant skin. I’m infected by your fragrance that hypnotizes my senses with gorgeousness. I refuse to find a cure from this infection that has weakened my emotions. Although weak and vulnerable, I smile at the thought of you. I smile because I call you my love…